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Pendulums and Egregores: How the Digital World is Feeding Off Our Rage (And Our Souls) [Podcast]
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Pendulums and Egregores: How the Digital World is Feeding Off Our Rage (And Our Souls) [Podcast]

Why We’re Trapped in an Emotional Ping-Pong Between Madness and Metaphysical Parasites

Disclaimer: This post contains metaphysical musings that may cause you to question realityβ€”or at least your latest social media outrage. For authorized narratives and guaranteed emotional numbness, please consult your nearest algorithm. Proceed with caution: reading may lead to independent thought and dimensional awareness.

Greetings, my Energetically Exhausted Nephew Fidibus, and Other Souls Stuck in the Feedback Loop,

It’s time to dive into something truly mind-bendingβ€”and no, I’m not talking about quantum mechanics or whatever it is Elon Musk’s Neuralink is cooking up next. Today, we’re exploring the ever-spinning, rage-inducing whirlpool that has taken over your mental landscape. I’m talking about β€œpendulums” and β€œegregores”—concepts that sound like ancient folklore but are as real as your last 3-hour Twitter doomscrolling session.

But wait, you might sayβ€”what’s a pendulum? And is an egregore just a fancy term for "mood swings"? Sit tight, grab your metaphysical sunglasses, and let’s break it down.

Why the World Feels Insane: Pendulums Swinging Wildly

You might’ve noticed that things are getting a little crazy out there. Wars, culture wars, politicians who can’t do math or remember where they are, and social media screaming matches over everything from climate change to whether a sweater should offend people. It’s a nonstop circus of outrage and confusion. But what if this isn’t just the product of random chaos? What if we’re all unknowingly being swept up by something deeper, something...parasitic?

Enter the pendulum theory, which suggests that every time we emotionally react to somethingβ€”be it rage, disgust, or righteous indignationβ€”we’re feeding into a larger, more sinister force. According to the metaphysical concept of pendulums, our collective emotions create energetic constructs that swing back and forth between extreme positions, growing stronger with every reaction. Think of it like a political tug-of-war: the more energy we put into one side, the harder the other side swings back.

The result? A perpetual state of polarization, where one group’s efforts to "save the world" end up triggering the exact opposite reaction in another group. Climate activists march, and suddenly people cling even tighter to their SUVs. Each side reinforces the other in a never-ending loop, and the pendulum swings on.

The Egregore: A Parasitic Thoughtform Feasting on Your Emotions

Now, let’s throw egregores into the mix. These aren’t your run-of-the-mill bad vibes. They’re parasitic, energetic entities created by the collective emotions of groups. Think of an egregore as a metaphysical vampireβ€”it grows stronger the more people feed it with their emotional energy. And, oh boy, do we feed these things on a daily basis.

Take a look at social media. Every time you post, comment, or share something that makes you mad (or madly agree), you’re fueling these egregores. Political discourse? Egregore buffet. Celebrity scandals? Gourmet egregore snacks. Wars, pandemics, or the fact that someone had the audacity to wear a sweater at the wrong party? It’s all just fuel for the fire.

And once these egregores reach a critical mass, they start feeding back into our reality. Ever wonder why certain ideas or trends seem to explode out of nowhere? Why suddenly everyone’s talking about the same thing, getting mad at the same people? That’s the egregore in action, buddyβ€”it’s influencing us, and we don’t even know it.

Morphic Fields and Dimensional Ping Pong: Welcome to the Cosmic Soup Kitchen

Ah, but dear Fidibus, just when you thought we were done, it gets better (or weirder, depending on your tolerance for mind-bending ideas). Enter the wild, wonderful world of Rupert Sheldrake and his theory of morphic fields. Imagine, if you will, that we’re all swimming in a cosmic soup of shared consciousnessβ€”a swirling broth of thoughts, habits, and behaviors that influence us in ways we can’t even see.

According to Sheldrake, these morphic fields are like energetic blueprints that guide everything from how birds know where to migrate to why people everywhere suddenly decided they had to make sourdough during lockdown. That’s right, Fidibusβ€”your obsession with baking during quarantine wasn’t entirely your idea. You were just plugged into the sourdough field, my friend.

And then, just when you think that’s already too much metaphysical madness, Burkhard Heim comes in and kicks down the door with his theory of 6 dimensions (or 12, depending on how much caffeine he’s had). According to Heim, we’re not just stuck in our humdrum three-dimensional existenceβ€”we’re playing 4D chess in a multi-dimensional universe. The catch? Most of us have no idea. Our limited perception traps us in the shallow end of the cosmic pool while Heim’s extra dimensions are where the real action is happening.

You see, these additional dimensions could be where egregores (and maybe that pendulum of rage you’ve been swinging on) hang out, waiting to make a quantum leap into your reality and ruin your day. Thanks, higher dimensions, you’re a real buzzkill. But hey, at least now we have an excuse for all this chaosβ€”we’re not just reacting to what's in front of us, we’re dealing with 6D quantum trolls.

Emotional Reactions: The Fast Track to Metaphysical Enslavement

But let’s not just stop at theoryβ€”this is backed by psychological fact. Our brains are wired to prioritize emotional experiences. When something triggers an intense emotional responseβ€”like outrageβ€”it gets stored deeper in our memory. And thanks to the power of confirmation bias, our brains filter reality to match what we’re already focused on. So the more we react to the same thing, the more we see it, the more we react, and the cycle continues. It’s a self-reinforcing loop.

You’re angry about a politician’s blunder? You’ll keep seeing and reacting to every blunder. Annoyed by climate activists or anti-vaxxers? Your brain’s got you coveredβ€”it’ll make sure that’s all you see. The pendulum keeps swinging, and the egregore keeps feeding, growing fatter and more powerful with every furious tweet or self-righteous Facebook post.

This is the real conspiracy: not the shadowy governments pulling the strings, but the fact that we’re all, willingly or not, feeding these parasitic entities.

Enter the Pendulum’s Swing: Social Media as the Ultimate Weapon

And where does this all get supercharged? Social media. The algorithms running our digital lives aren’t built to make us happier, healthier, or more enlightenedβ€”they’re built to trigger us. Why? Because triggered people engage more. We share more, argue more, and react more. Each reaction gives the Facebooks, Twitters, and Instagrams of the world more profit while simultaneously feeding the egregores.

It’s an energetic Ponzi scheme, where every click, comment, and angry emoji fuels a larger and larger divide. And as the pendulum swings wider, both sides become more extreme, feeding into the egregore’s voracious hunger for our emotional energy.

But here’s the kicker: this isn’t just happening in politics. It’s happening in everything. From consumer culture (Vegan vs. Meat-eaters, Electric Cars vs. Diesel) to celebrity drama, we’re being weaponized to generate chaos and confusion, all in the name of feeding an invisible force we barely comprehend.

The Metaphysical Parasite: Are We Being Programmed to Stay Angry?

Here’s where we take a deep dive into conspiracy theory meets metaphysical reality: what if these egregores, these parasitic thoughtforms, aren’t just the byproduct of human emotion but actual entities with intent? What if they’re intentionally triggering us to keep growing? Sounds wild, right? But consider thisβ€”our collective obsession with negativity is skyrocketing. Depression, anxiety, loneliness, and burnout are all at all-time highs. It’s like humanity’s emotional thermostat has been turned up to "boiling," and we’re all getting cooked alive by our own reactions.

Could these egregores be influencing our behavior on a massive scale? Are they feeding us thoughts, nudging us towards conflict, pushing us to escalate every minor disagreement into a world-ending crisis? If you’ve ever caught yourself irrationally fixating on something, even when you know it’s trivial, you might just be under their spell.

And no, I’m not talking about demonic possession or Matrix-level mind control. This is more insidiousβ€”it’s about nudging, influencing, and shaping the collective unconscious so that we’re all stuck in reaction mode, never quite able to break free.

Egregores, Porn, and Addiction: How to Feed a Parasite Without Even Knowing It

Now, let’s talk about egregores in a language you’re probably a little too familiar with: porn and addiction. Don’t worry, Fidibus, you’re not alone. That late-night detour onto certain ahem adult websites isn’t just a quick hit of dopamineβ€”it’s practically an invitation for an egregore to set up shop in your psyche. Think about it: you’re pouring energy into something that provides no long-term benefit, but man, does it demand your attention like a needy parasite.

Egregores love addiction. Whether it’s pornography, social media scrolling, or even just your daily rage scroll through Twitter, you’re feeding them emotional fuel every time you indulge. You might think it’s harmlessβ€”just one more video, just one more scrollβ€”but that’s exactly how they get you. The more you feed the habit, the more space it takes up in your brain, like a bad roommate who never pays rent.

And here’s the real kicker: the more you indulge, the stronger the egregore gets. It starts showing up in your thoughts, uninvited, like that weird cousin who always comes to family gatherings with unsolicited opinions. You find yourself thinking about it randomly, even when you don’t want toβ€”where do those thoughts come from? Why can’t you shake them off? Well, that’s your friendly neighborhood egregore whispering in your ear: β€œHey, don’t you miss me?” And just like that, you’re back to feeding the beast.

So, next time you’re about to dive into your favorite vice, ask yourself: Am I feeding a parasitic thoughtform, or am I actually doing something meaningful with my life? Spoiler: if you’re on your sixth hour of YouTube rabbit-holes or yet another visit to your favorite adult site, you’ve already chosen the former.

How to Break Free from the Pendulum Trap

So, what can we do about it? Stop feeding the beast. Every time you find yourself reacting emotionally to something, especially online, take a breath. Recognize that your energy is being hijacked to feed something bigger and nastier than you might realize.

But we don’t stop there. The real solution isn’t just to stop reactingβ€”it’s to start creating. Instead of pouring your energy into what makes you angry, pour it into what you want to build. Create something real, something meaningful, something that helps you and those around you grow. That’s how we starve the egregores and take back control of the pendulum.

Final Thoughts: Are We Doomed to Swing Forever?

At the end of the day, the choice is yours. Will you keep feeding the pendulum, allowing your emotions to be siphoned off by unseen forces? Or will you use your energy to create something new, something that doesn’t swing back and forth between extremes? The system thrives on keeping us enraged, reactive, and distracted. But the moment you stop playing their game, you start playing your own.


But hey, that’s just my two cryptic cents, my emotionally exhausted Protopians. Or, as my eccentric existential tour guide, Kurt Vonnegut, once mused: β€œWe are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be.” Pretending to care about every outrage handed to us on a silver platter won’t liberate us. It’ll only keep the pendulum swinging.

So, with a wink of cosmic irony and a defiant grin, I bid you farewell. We’ve delved into the energy-sucking pendulums, the parasitic egregores, and the insidious forces shaping our digital reality. The challenge, my dear Protopians, is not to react with fury, but with wit, awareness, and a refusal to be puppeteered. Stay sharp, stay skeptical, and remember: in a world of emotional manipulation, clarity is your superpower.

Yours in Pendulum-free Peace and Egregore Evasion,
FrizzleBob
Rogue Rabbit of Reactions and Digital Dissidence


Morphic Field Quotes to Ponder

  • β€œThe world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think.” β€” Horace Walpole

  • β€œHe who angers you, conquers you.” β€” Elizabeth Kenny

  • β€œThe most dangerous man to any government is the man who is able to think things out for himself.” β€” H. L. Mencken

  • β€œIt is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” β€” Jiddu Krishnamurti

  • β€œWhenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect.” β€” Mark Twain

  • β€œWe do not see things as they are, we see them as we are.” β€” AnaΓ―s Nin

  • β€œCivilization is a race between education and catastrophe.” β€” H.G. Wells

  • β€œThe only real prison is fear, and the only real freedom is freedom from fear.” β€” Aung San Suu Kyi

  • β€œThe first principle is that you must not fool yourself, and you are the easiest person to fool.” β€” Richard Feynman

  • β€œMost people do not really want freedom, because freedom involves responsibility, and most people are frightened of responsibility.” β€” Sigmund Freud

  • β€œNothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.” β€” Marie Curie


FrizzleBob’s Survival Tips for Living Beyond the Pendulums and Egregores

These tips aren’t just for making it through another day on the Infinite Canvas. They’re here to help you become a subversive creator, a free-thinker, and a rebel artist capable of disrupting the thoughtforms that seek to influence you.


1. Resist the Pendulum’s Swing

  • Whenever you feel pulled into an emotional reaction, stop. Breathe. Ask yourself: Am I feeding the pendulum? The more energy you put into extremes, the more you strengthen the pendulum’s control over your reality. Stay centered, calm, and observant. Your neutrality is kryptonite to these energetic constructs.

2. Create Your Own Egregores

  • Instead of letting society’s egregores shape you, create your own. Develop a thoughtform of creativity, resilience, or joy. Feed it daily with small actions and intentions. Let it grow stronger until it overpowers the parasitic egregores vying for your attention. Your mind is a fertile groundβ€”plant what you want to cultivate.

3. Disrupt the Feedback Loop

  • Social media is designed to keep you engaged in an endless feedback loop of emotional highs and lows. Break this loop by engaging in analog activities: read a book, draw on paper, go for a walk without your phone. Do something that isn’t monetized or mediated by algorithms. The more you step out of the loop, the freer you’ll feel.

4. Feed Your Morphic Fields

  • The habits you cultivate create ripples in the morphic fields. Choose actions that make you stronger, kinder, and more resilient. Every choice you make affects the collective consciousness. Want to live in a world with more empathy and creativity? Be the source of that energy and watch it spread through the morphic fields.

5. Develop Mental Immunity

  • Think of each thought as a visitor, not a master. Strengthen your mental immune system by observing thoughts and emotions without judgment. Detach from what doesn’t serve you. Egregores feed on attachment, so the less reactive you are, the less power they have over you.

6. Make Art with the Pendulums

  • Every swing of the pendulum is an opportunity to create something new. Channel the energy of societal extremes into art that provokes, challenges, and inspires. Pendulums can’t resist art, as it breaks down their rigid structures and introduces new perspectives. Use your creativity to rewire the pendulum’s influence into something transformative.

7. Rewire Your Reality Tunnel

  • Reality is what you make of it. Practice shifting your perspective and exploring different viewpoints. Step outside your usual patterns of thought and embrace cognitive flexibility. The more fluid your perception, the harder it will be for egregores to latch on to you.

8. Observe the Infinite Canvas

  • The Infinite Canvas isn’t just for comics; it’s a metaphor for life. Remember, each panel is a moment in time, a frame of your existence. Step back and observe the narrative arc of your life. Are you letting someone else script your story, or are you painting each scene with intention?

9. Guard Your Energy

  • Your attention is your most precious resource. Guard it as fiercely as you would anything of value. Avoid spending it on the things that drain you or lead to dead ends. Redirect your energy toward activities and people that lift you up and inspire growth.

10. Be the Source of Your Own Pendulum

  • Rather than swinging between extremes imposed by society, create your own rhythm. Dance to the beat of your unique pendulumβ€”a rhythm that’s in harmony with your values, desires, and goals. When you’re the source of your own energy, you’ll find yourself less swayed by the external pendulums and egregores trying to pull you off course.


Egregores and Protopian Rabbit Holes for the Curious Mind

1. Egregore: The Occult Entities That Watch Over Human Destiny by Mark Stavish

  • A deep dive into the ancient concept of Egregores, this book explores how collective emotions can manifest entities that shape human culture. Stavish brings in occult practices and thought-forms that show you just how powerful our collective mind can be. Perfect for those wanting to understand how these metaphysical parasites could be influencing the digital landscape.

2. Psycho-Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz

  • While it doesn’t talk about Pendulums directly, Maltz’s work on self-image and the subconscious mind serves as a foundational text for understanding how our thoughts shape reality. This is a handbook for mastering the feedback loop of mental images and beliefs, which is exactly the kind of mind-hack you’ll need to disrupt those pesky Egregores.

3. Reality Transurfing by Vadim Zeland

  • Vadim Zeland introduces the concept of Pendulums in this metaphysical guide to navigating parallel realities. Zeland offers an unconventional approach to life that involves breaking free from societal conditioning and avoiding the emotional hooks of Pendulums. Essential for anyone seeking to regain control of their narrative on the Infinite Canvas.

4. The Secret Teachings of All Ages by Manly P. Hall

  • This one’s a treat for those who love the occult and esoteric knowledge. Manly P. Hall’s classic dives into hidden symbols, mythologies, and metaphysical concepts that influence our world. While it doesn’t discuss Egregores by name, it’s a masterclass in understanding how invisible forces shape culture, consciousness, and society.

5. The Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot

  • Talbot explores the possibility that our universe might be a hologramβ€”a reality that behaves like a three-dimensional projection from a two-dimensional source. This mind-bending idea plays beautifully into the Infinite Canvas concept, suggesting that reality is layered and each layer could be a unique panel on a cosmic comic strip.

6. The Technological Society by Jacques Ellul

  • In this sobering examination, Ellul discusses how technology, rather than serving humanity, begins to reshape human needs, thoughts, and societies. Although not directly about Egregores, Ellul’s work touches on the dehumanizing effects of technologyβ€”a warning for those who believe AI and digital platforms may themselves evolve into self-sustaining entities.

7. Morphic Resonance: The Nature of Formative Causation by Rupert Sheldrake

  • A foundational text for the concept of morphic fields, Sheldrake’s work examines how habits, memories, and consciousness resonate across species and individuals. This is essential reading for those curious about how our collective habits form invisible fields that influence everything from thoughts to societal trends.

8. The Fourth Turning by William Strauss and Neil Howe

  • This book doesn’t cover Egregores directly but explores recurring generational cycles. These cycles act like societal Pendulums, swinging from crisis to awakening and back again. Understanding these cycles is crucial for anyone wanting to spot patterns in history and predict the next big societal shifts.

9. Prometheus Rising by Robert Anton Wilson

  • Wilson combines psychology, philosophy, and humor to explore the nature of reality and human consciousness. His work takes readers through exercises designed to break free from reality tunnels. This is a fantastic brain bender that’ll prepare you for navigating the Infinite Canvas with a flexible mind.


Uncle FrizzleBob’s Protopian Brainfood

  1. "The Social Dilemma"
    Watch on Netflix
    Protopian Potential: This documentary dives into how social media platforms manipulate user emotions for profit. A must-watch for understanding how our rage, distraction, and addictions are harvested by the Blob through algorithmic engagement.

  1. Social Media: Are We Being Played, or Just Playing Along?

    The Netflix documentary The Social Dilemma certainly sparked a global conversation about social media's role in emotional manipulation, but not everyone’s convinced. According to critics like Sean Malone in "The Social Dilemma Is Dangerously Wrong", the film sensationalizes the issue, making it seem like social media alone is responsible for the downfall of society, when in reality, it's just one piece of a much bigger puzzle. As Malone points out, blaming the algorithm might be too easy of an excuseβ€”after all, who’s really holding the reins: you or the algorithm?

  1. "Reality Transurfing" by Vadim Zeland
    Read online excerpts @transurfing.us
    Protopian Potential: Zeland introduces the concept of pendulumsβ€”energetic entities that thrive on collective emotions and reactions. Perfect for understanding how feeding the pendulum keeps us trapped in emotional cycles.

  2. "Egregores: The Occult Entities That Watch Over Human Destiny" by Mark Stavish
    Find @thesophiainstitute.org
    Protopian Potential: Stavish explains how egregoresβ€”parasitic thoughtformsβ€”feed on human emotions, influencing societies and cultures. This is your gateway to the metaphysical side of why your favorite vice may not be as harmless as you think.

  3. "The Crowd: A Study of the Popular Mind" by Gustave Le Bon
    Available @archive.org
    Protopian Potential: Le Bon’s exploration of crowd psychology lays the groundwork for understanding how groupthink, fueled by emotional contagion, can lead to mass manipulation. This is the human side of how egregores come to life.

  4. "Dopamine Nation" by Dr. Anna Lembke
    Find @your favorite book retailer
    Protopian Potential: Dr. Lembke explores how modern addictionsβ€”from social media to pornographyβ€”are built on the manipulation of our brain’s dopamine loops. Essential reading for understanding how the Blob keeps us hooked.

  5. "Morphic Resonance and the Habits of Nature" by Rupert Sheldrake
    Watch Sheldrake’s TED talk @YouTube
    Protopian Potential: Sheldrake’s theory of morphic fields explains how habits, thoughts, and behaviors resonate across time and space. Essential for connecting the dots on how collective actions seem to emerge spontaneously, as if controlled by a cosmic force.

  6. "The Fourth Dimension: Toward a Geometry of Higher Reality" by Rudy Rucker
    Find @goodreads.com
    Protopian Potential: Rucker’s work provides an accessible introduction to higher dimensions and how they might influence our reality. Perfect for a mind-bending exploration into how the Blob could be playing 4D chess with your emotions.

  7. "The Mass Psychology of Fascism" by Wilhelm Reich
    Read @archive.org
    Protopian Potential: Reich’s work explores how emotional repression leads to authoritarian tendencies. A crucial resource for understanding how mass manipulation via emotional control can shape political systems.

  1. "A New Science of Life: The Hypothesis of Morphic Resonance" by Rupert Sheldrake
    Find @your local library
    Protopian Potential: Sheldrake deepens the discussion on how morphic fields shape biological and social behavior. A must-read for anyone looking to understand how energetic blueprints guide reality.

  2. "The Holographic Universe" by Michael Talbot

  1. Watch interviews @YouTube
    Protopian Potential: Talbot’s book explores how the universe might be a projection of higher dimensions. If you’re looking to understand how the metaphysical pendulum swings, this is the rabbit hole to jump down.


Fact Verification and Sources (Do Your Own Research)

β€œQuestion everything, even your own anger. Because in a world of emotional manipulation, your rage is someone else's profit.”

  1. Pendulums and Egregores:
    The concept of pendulums and egregores originates from metaphysical traditions, where they are understood as energetic constructs fueled by collective human emotions. These constructs grow stronger the more emotional energy (positive or negative) is directed at them, influencing group behavior and societal trends.
    Check: Research into pendulums from Vadim Zeland's Reality Transurfing and egregores in occult literature (notably Eliphas LΓ©vi) and modern psychological theories on emotional reinforcement and habit formation, including cognitive bias studies and collective behavior research.

  2. Social Media and Emotional Feedback Loops:
    Algorithms on platforms like Facebook and Twitter are designed to trigger emotional reactions, increasing engagement (and profits). The more engagement, the more these platforms reinforce extreme views and amplify societal divisions. This emotional feedback loop keeps users in a constant state of reactivity, making them more likely to feed into polarizing content.
    Check: Studies from MIT Technology Review, the documentary The Social Dilemma, and research into social media’s effects on mental health and polarization by Jonathan Haidt and Tristan Harris.

  3. Egregores in Popular Culture:
    Egregoresβ€”originally from occult philosophyβ€”have been adapted into modern thought as metaphors for the collective behavior of groups and organizations. These thoughtforms are considered parasitic, feeding on the emotional energy of those who interact with them. Gustave Le Bon’s The Crowd explores the psychology of mass movements, showing how collective emotions can influence large groups, a concept closely aligned with egregores.
    Check: Esoteric works on egregores, such as Mark Stavish’s Egregores: The Occult Entities That Watch Over Human Destiny, and studies on crowd psychology, including Gustave Le Bon’s The Crowd and Wilhelm Reich’s The Mass Psychology of Fascism.

  4. Morphic Fields and Collective Consciousness:
    Rupert Sheldrake’s morphic field theory suggests that habits, behaviors, and even biological development are influenced by invisible fields of collective memory. These fields resonate across individuals and species, forming a kind of energetic blueprint that shapes reality. Sheldrake’s theory explains why certain behaviors or ideas emerge simultaneously across the globe, as seen in trends like the surge in cryptocurrency and sourdough baking during lockdowns.
    Check: Rupert Sheldrake’s works on morphic resonance, especially A New Science of Life, and studies on collective consciousness.

  5. Addiction, Pornography, and Dopamine Loops:
    Modern addictions, from pornography to social media, can be understood as feeding parasitic egregores. These habits engage the brain’s dopamine loops, creating a cycle of craving and satisfaction that mirrors the energy exchange with egregores. Each indulgence strengthens the addiction and the thoughtform behind it, making it harder to break free.
    Check: Research on addiction psychology, dopamine feedback loops in addiction, and habit formation studies by James Clear (Atomic Habits) and Dr. Anna Lembke (Dopamine Nation).


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